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Have you ever experienced that embarrassment feeling deep inside your head for no real reason? Just because you have remembered something... or maybe you have felt afraid of memories? I'm not sure if that's just me, or if these things happen to everyone, but oh, I hate it, when I'm not sure... and I rarely am sure... about anything. But I think, that simply evolved from memories... I never know - was that something true? Or maybe it was a dream? Or it could just have happened inside my goddamn head. I think about my past over and over again till I'm not sure if I remembered some things wrong or if I overwrote them by looking at them from diff

I don't remember how we all ended up in a middle of boulevard at 4 o'clock in a morning, all covered with sand, when all you can see is snow, but till this day it's still a mystery about which we strangely don't care too much. As I opened my eyes, I was already freezing, which meant, we have been laying here on a ground for a while. It wasn't so cold, but the wind was really strong, so it blew all those small ice pieces into my face and it hurt so much, like needles would be flying into my face, through my skin, into my brain, as within every second it was harder and harder to think. So eventually I just stopped. I fell on my knees, put my ha

I crushed a dead, brown, rotten leaf into small, useless peaces... and then another... I crushed it into hell.. forever and ever, alone. I kissed a man, not one, not two, and there I was... helpless. My hands were tied and I was blind, without legs, without heart, on a ground, around dirty brown leaves, which autumn left behind. And ropes around my hands were getting thicker, growing all around my body, so that no scissors could cut through, no knifes would cut them off, no sword will ever rip them apart. And soon the first snow will come, it will step on my dying body, leaving nothing but ice... thorny, thin brambles, winder around my body w